Brett Cooper — McJuggerNuggets Faked His Entire Life For Views. Did He Fake This Too?

- So at the end of last week, an OG YouTuber and his wife announced that they chose to abort their baby after they were told that the baby would have a high likelihood of being born with Down syndrome. And the way that this man went about documenting the entire pregnancy, all five months of it, the subsequent abortion was so callous, was so disgusting that now people on the internet think that he made up the entire thing just to get clicks and revive his YouTube career.

Or it could be in my opinion, that after 20 years on the internet, he and his family are just that numb to the exploitation and monetization of their lives. Now regardless of that, I think we should also talk about whether in the future this man actually should be a father. So let's talk about it. Before we do though, I wanna thank you guys so much for being here. Thank you for always liking and commenting on the videos.

Make sure you're subscribed and ring that notification bell if you wanna stay up to date on everything we're doing here on the Brett Cooper Show. Alright, so in case you missed the post that made Mick Juer nuggets and his wife Ashley, the most hated couple on the internet, let's just take a look. This is what he posted on X before the weekend started. So his real name, even though he goes by Nick Juer nuggets on YouTube is Jesse Ridgeway.

And this is what he posted this week. My wife and I made the very difficult decision to terminate the pregnancy due to TR Zomi 21. The choice was not made lightly. We appreciate all the personal stories that you guys shared with us, especially the unconditional support we received from fans. No matter what we decided. I know some of you may be very disappointed to hear this S news. We are devastated. Yeah, you're devastated 'cause you killed your own child.

This has been extremely traumatic for both of us, especially Ashley Gender. One, the procedure earlier this week and is on the mend. Thankfully everything went smoothly, but emotionally we are drained. DMI 21, also known as Down syndrome, is caused by an extra chromosome. It is caused by an error in cell division, like a glitch. The odds of a baby having it is one in a thousand. When I first confronted the news, I was shocked but optimistic.

If they're a little slow intellectually, then we'll make it work. I signed on to be a parent, come what may, but I just didn't fully understand what Down syndrome entailed. So come what may, but actually maybe this was just a bit too far, so actually not come what may at all. He goes on and he says 50% of babies with Down syndrome have heart defects. 75% will have hearing challenges, over 50% will have vision problems, impaired immune function, developmental disabilities, learning disabilities, delayed physical development, poor muscle tones, structural issues with face, decreased lifespan, et cetera.

Sadly, the list is long. Feel free to look it up. Down syndrome isn't a blessing, it is objectively shitty from a health perspective. I didn't realise just how rough it is for the child, let alone the family. More often than not, they would be fully dependent on others for the rest of their life. The miscarriage risk is also close to 50%, which made matters worse. They may never see the light of day and it puts Ashley further at risk.

So you would rather kill your child before it got the chance to even try to live to prove you wrong, to you know, bring light into your life to actually be a blessing. You would rather kill it before it got the opportunity. But it is true. There is a risk for the mother when it comes to a miscarriage, but there also are risks when undergoing and abortion. And so you chose the easier route and yet many of the risks were still the same going on.

He says, we spoke with doctors, friends, family and genetic counsellors and learned that up to 90% of women terminate their pregnancy after learning that the baby has Trisomy 21. This was way higher than I expected. I thought it would be lower. Given that I hear so many say that they kept or would keep the baby. I believe that that is because most terminations happen privately and it feels shameful. A lot of judgement being cast.

You think you'd never be in this type of situation until it happens to you. And then things change. To all of my friends who have weighed in on this topic who have autism down syndrome or other conditions, we appreciate you. You matter a lot and we're glad you're here. I commend you and your families for having the strength and courage to push forward. As for us, we made a difficult decision that we believe in the long run will be beneficial for our family.

Thankfully we had a choice. It'll take a little time to move on, but we are excited to try again in the future and hopefully have a better outcome. Love you guys and thank you for understanding. So we killed our child and we're excited to try again and maybe get a normal one, have a better outcome, is what he's saying. I mean it like it is so awful. As you can see there in that screenshot, this post now a week later has 24.4 million impressions.

I don't know if he expected that it would reach that many people, but it did. And the internet is absolutely lit up. Now obviously the choice to abort the baby in and of itself is just awful. But I think what struck people the most was how callous Jesse's language was, how comfortable he was and expecting that their fans and the internet would applaud their brave decision that they made for their family. You guys know I am pro-life and the choice to abort the baby in and of itself is awful.

It's devastating to me. But I think what struck people the most online was how comfortable Jesse seemed giving this news. How callous the language was that he chose to use wasn't a blessing, it was a glitch. He guesses that he could make it work if the kid was a little slow intellectually, when you choose to try and have a baby on le, let's take it even further back than this. When you choose to engage in sex, because let's be honest here, engaging in sex, that is consent to the possibility of having a baby.

When you choose to do that thing that could create a life you are signing on to be a parent, you should know that. And when you are signing on to be a parent, as Jesse said, that he you know, thought he understood, you are signing up for whatever God or the universe, whatever you believe in, whatever you are given. And so in this post he's saying, yeah, I signed on to be a parent, but I signed on to be a parent to a normal healthy child.

Something that wouldn't inconvenience me as much as this, but unfortunately Jesse, that's just not how life works. I know that in our IVF world where people are able to rank their embryos, pick and choose their embryos based on maybe viability gender, whether it might have a genetic condition or not, you can seemingly play God to get your perfect baby so that you can kind of pick the type of parenting experience you're going to have.

But like even then, in that type of IVF world, it is simply not the case. Because what happens if your next child is normal, normal Jesse? What if they're born without a glitch but then years later is diagnosed with cancer? What if they're diagnosed with autism five years later? What if they get into an accident when they're 15 years old and they become disabled and then they're dependent on you for the rest of your life?

What if in the case of my mom, she is still taking care of her son that was born normal without a glitch, but developed schizophrenia in his late twenties. Now he's 36 years old and still dependent upon my mother. You do not get to choose. That's part of the vulnerability of having children. You have to surrender. It is terrifying, but that that's par for the course. You don't get to play God Parenthood is literally just doing the best you can with the cards that you are continuously dealt.

And you get to choose whether you see it as a blessing. So you're sitting here and you're going, no, it's actually shitty. It's not a blessing. Those parents who kept their children, they are choosing to see those joyful children with Down syndrome as a blessing because they are, because they made that choice. That is how they are dealing with the cards that they are dealt. And also this should just, you know, be something that everybody can agree on, but that life, even if it is not normal, even if it has a glitch, Jesse is still worthy.

You as a father, you chose to kill an innocent life because you did not want to be inconvenienced. And so I wonder what you'll do. God forbid if you are normal non glitchy baby in the future has a problem that you could not predict on an ultrasound and you become inconvenienced. Oh wait, I actually do know what you'll do. You on your YouTube channel will exploit it and monetize it for views because that is what you've been doing this entire time.

I mean this entire tragic story has been so optimised and tailored for YouTube content that people even began wondering if the entire thing was made up for views. Look at these posts. One man says, guys, after watching Jesse and Ashley Ridgeways YouTube channel last night, I'm leaning towards their abortion announcement being scripted and fake. They're known for scripting reality content with long running storylines.

His channel gets relatively low views in engagement for 4.3 plus million subscribers. This feels like a controversy play to regain relevance in this twisted social experiment. Another person said this Down syndrome abortion story is not adding up to me. I think that they faked the whole thing. I went to the McJagger Nugget YouTube channel, which is Jesse's main channel with over 4 million subscribers. His channel is riddled with controversial and weird, depressing videos.

His wife Ashley has been the girlfriend leaving him in a number of videos. There are many videos about bad diagnoses to varying people in his life. How do we know if any of this is real? Now all of these posts and there are way more than just those two that I read, but they caught my attention because on the surface they are right. Like the videos on his channel are very strange. They're very out there. The, you know, titles are crazy.

But after I started looking into everything and actually watching the videos, I don't think they're faking it in my opinion. I think that he is just a piece of shit with a history of click baiting and exploiting his wife for views. Like somebody commented and said, people think I'm being dramatic when I say that they monetize the abortion of their baby, but I'm not because that is exactly what they did and she's completely correct.

So let me break down all of this and you'll kind of see why people think that this is fake. So back in 2012, Jesse started the Psycho Kid series on his YouTube channel again it is called Jogger Nuggets. And he kept it going through 2016. And this series is what skyrocketed him to fame. I mean it racked up billions upon billions of views. As you can see here, some of these videos have 37 million views literally just on one.

And these were basically home videos of him and his dad being psycho. So you can see here, like the psycho dad drowns, Xbox Psycho Dad chainsaws, Xbox One Psycho Dad destroys Xbox Psycho Dad shreds video games. It's like all of these like insane things that they were doing to each other. And these videos blew up because the internet thought that they were real, they were shot like home videos. They thought that it was just this crazy family that was documenting everything on social media.

And it was not until the final episode in 2016 that he revealed that they were all just skits. That they were just playing make believe. And so from there, after he ended the psycho series in 2016, he basically replaced it with other clickbait style content that consisted of him breaking up and getting back together with girlfriends and talking about health crises. Like some of the titles are McJagger nuggets undergoes surgery too.

RIP, aunt Jackie McJagger Nuggets rushed to the emergency room. My girlfriend is leaving me, Ashley and I broke up, my girlfriend is done with me, my mom has a tumour. McJagger Nuggets, new girlfriend begging for my ex-girlfriend back, the truth about my fake girlfriend. And so obviously to a lot of people online it probably seems like a slam dunk. It's like, okay, he is known for these skits, he's making up things, he's doing these insane videos of girlfriends leaving him, not leaving him.

But now he's married to this girl. He does skits, he made it all up. However, the thing that I would say the caveat, and again I can be proven wrong, we could learn next year that this was, you know, totally made up. He just wanted to be relevant again, who knows? But what I am thinking here is that this style of YouTube editing and posting has been around for ages. It's not really popular anymore. I would say like it's very 2014 David Dorich.

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You know, unless Mick jogger nuggets had somebody else take the pregnancy test was at the ultrasound with somebody else, then I personally think that it is real. I think that really what is happening is he's just using it for content and izing it in ways that he has been doing for years. And that is gross. It is it like objectively it is gross and it's even more disgusting when you see the way that he was treating his wife throughout the entire thing.

Now I will say it didn't necessarily start off with it all being gross because at the end of March on his channel, he posted the pregnancy announcement, seemed fine enough, happy they were overjoyed, very excited. They then shared their first ultrasound, which was on March 24th. And then it was about three weeks later on April 22nd that he posted a vlog of their gender reveal that turned into his brother accidentally looking at the wrong results on his phone when he was supposed to be doing the gender reveal and reading information about the probability of the baby being born with Down syndrome.

Which you can see right here, the title of that video is we received devastating news Psycho update. Like he's saying, we received all this devastating news, it's my vlog, but also you're gonna get an update on my OG psycho videos. That's what's happening here. And so in this video you can see his brother as they are trying to do this gender reveal with their family, try to figure out how to handle the situation. He clearly is uncomfortable.

He does not wanna film it. But Jesse then goes to his brother and asks him to film the reaction of him learning this news so that he can put it on the channel. Watch this clip. - Wait. - Oh, a bad hell thing. Oh, maybe I'll hear it. Yeah, - Okay. - Not gonna - Hear - Maybe. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Maybe film it and his brother's like you sure. And he is like, yeah, even shoots back a look to the other camera like as if I wouldn't want this for content.

His brother is sitting there not even wanting to do the gender reveal, is carrying this information that he has learned accidentally and is like, I kind of feel like maybe we should talk about this. Film it bro, for content. He doesn't wanna film it. I mean it is just like, it is a totally different frame of mind. Again, this is why I think his brain is just warped after 20 years of this. He's like, obviously it's content.

This is work for me. I don't care if there's an issue 'cause we've gotta get it for content anyway. Now we can move on and we can see him actually learning the news. - All right, so ge, so Jeffrey said there is a result we were just about to film, but he is like, so you did see a health thing? Yeah. What was it? - High risk of Down syndrome. - Really? - 19 outta 21. - What's that mean? - Some it said high risk probability.

19 out of 20 people that have this chromosomal make up on this test have down syndrome. So it could be nothing. - Did 19 outta 20 have it? - Yeah, yeah, - Yeah. And then he puts in the dramatic music, of course. Like the difference between his brother and him is so stark in this clip. Like his brother is like almost struggling to get through this. I can hear him kind of like catching his breath. He's a little nervous.

Jesse Sugar McNuggets is sitting there like, oh, okay, okay. Like keep filming bro. I mean it's ju like I, I just can't. I just can't. Anyway, so from there, after he learns the news, then Jesse goes back to his wife Ashley and says like, let's not worry about it. Let's just keep filming, let's keep filming, let's do the gender reveal. And I guess that you could argue that he wanted to preserve the joy of the gender reveal in case, you know, these health results were nothing.

He didn't wanna, you know, stress her out and ruin that memory. But it really did seem based on everything, now that I know, it really seemed like it was just all about the content. He wanted to get his reaction on camera, he wanted to make sure they filmed the reveal the way that they wanted to. It's all for clicks. - So we'll proceed. - Okay. Yeah, - We'll proceed. - We're alright. It's fine. I don't want to, we wanna, I wanna film this.

Well, I'm worry gender's, everything's fine. It's just, there's one of those like health related things. What was it? It's better if we probably film and then talk about it afterwards or else it'll up. Yeah, I don't wanna ruin the moment. There's nothing, there's one of these early test things that like, we don't know. - And so is it about ruining the moment for your wife or is it about making sure that you get the shot?

I wanna keep filming this. I don't wanna, I don't wanna like get in our heads and we should, we should really keep filming. Like turn the cameras off. Just enjoy the moment with your wife. If it really is about her and you wanna preserve this moment for her and make it a great memory, turn off the fricking cameras and just do that. Spend time with her. But no, it has to be content that you're going to use in a vlog.

So from there they proceed. Like he says, they go on and they do the gender reveal. And obviously at this point now she is not in the moment. She's stressed because she knows that something else is going on. And so after the gender reveal, she grabs the phone and she finds the results for herself. And this is where, I mean, I just had chills running up my spine because of how gross it was. - Yeah. Jeffrey said, and I don't, maybe you could speak to this, but there's a down syndrome chance.

- Your wife is just finding out that your child might have Down syndrome. And you're like, so yeah guys, Jeffrey said there might be a chance. Shut up. Shut up. Look at your wife. She's sitting there shaking, holding the phone, wanting you to comfort her. And you're like, yeah, so let's talk. Shh. Oh my God. It makes me like never wanna do YouTube again. 'cause I'm like, oh my God, if I ever became anything like this, take me out.

Genuinely. Like I, I think that it, it truly warps people's minds, right? We're gonna continue 'cause it just gets worse. We're only nine seconds in, and I'm already losing my mind on this clip. - But it's like 95 out of a hundred percent chance. - I mean, none of that is normal. The only thing that is normal is Ashley's response. Like obviously she's going to be upset, she's going to be confused and not because she now hates this baby.

But, but you have, you know, a life that you've envisioned with you and this child. And when things change, it's not just about having a child, but when anything changes in your life and your expectations have to shift your vision for your life. Changes. Changes. That is a shock. That is the most normal part of the entire video. Meanwhile, the family is filming, he's wring his hands, talking to the camera, shooting glances at his audience, not comforting her or anything 'cause he's too focused on talking to his family or his audience, whatever's happening.

And then they film her walking away alone. She's alone, she's crying. Yeah. Let's, let's make sure we get the shot, bro. Let's put on some really good dramatic music. Like you are a piece of shit. I am. So, so like, again, he is exploiting this situation. He's exploiting this pain. And just the cherry on top of that entire video is that in the thumbnail, the text he wrote was, we may lose the baby. No, no. That's not what happened.

No sir. You, you might choose to kill your baby. That actually is what you meant to say. And that is what happened a couple weeks later. Now moving on from that video, just continuing on this timeline, a month later they finally post another vlog. And this time it's them in Atlantic City. They said that they needed to escape process the possible diagnosis. So they planned a vacation to celebrate their disabled dog's birthday.

Yes, you heard that correctly. They planned a vacation for their disabled dog's sixth birthday. So what we know now is that they aborted their baby that could have been disabled, but they've been keeping their disabled dog that has no kidneys, zero kidneys alive for years. And they took it to the casinos in Atlantic City for its birthday so that they could process this tragic thing that they are experiencing. Okay, just moving on from that though, I do think that that is worth talking about In that video, while they're in Atlantic City, they say that when they get back from this vacation, they were going to do the further testing to confirm this possible diagnosis.

And on May 27th, after they'd gotten home, they posted that update video. And just to make matters worse, apparently the doctor had called Ashley twice trying to give her the results and talked to her. But Jesse made her wait until he got home so that they could fill it so that they could do a vlog. And then you see her as they're, you know, doing the intro. And he is saying that you see her get increasingly frustrated as he is just sitting there talking to the camera about how it's so late on a Friday evening and they don't even know if the doctor's gonna pick up.

'cause they waited so long. He's rambling and she's like, oh my gosh, can we please just call the doctor? You can see that here. - She's like pretty much four months pregnant right now. So there's a lot riding on this. It's high stakes. We're gonna find out if the baby has down syndrome confirmed or the baby's normal. And it was a false positive. That's the scary thing, guys, is we're both like, we both feel like it's going to be good news and the baby's normal, even though the odds were stacked against us.

So like we will both be gutted. If it is bad news, I'll definitely be before I was able to be like, oh, it'll be fine. Okay, let's just call. Yeah. All right. All right, ready? Put it on speaker. Yeah, - Put it on speakerphone. Let's make sure everybody can hear it. Let's make sure the vlog can catch what the doctor's saying. I mean, literally in that entire video, he's rambling on, he's doing his stuff, she's sitting there fidgeting, obviously uncomfortable.

He's like, this is a high stake situation, bro. I mean, just gotta stay I I public enemy number one for me, just letting you know, if that man has no haters, then that means I'm dead. Now back to the point, obviously they're vlogging the entire thing, putting it on speaker phone so they can monetize the experience. And while Jesse was at it, he decided to take it a step even further. Why not just put an ad in right after we hear the results and discuss terminating the pregnancy?

That is exactly what he did. Just watch, - Where's your head at? Just sad you just, you okay building your ass. - Right? And you might be thinking, you know, Brett, that is just a coincidence. It is a normal YouTube ad. He can't control where those goes. It's not like he's turning to the camera and doing a dramatic ad read like you do. But no, here's the thing, you can control where those ads go when you are uploading a video onto YouTube.

You can go in and you can create a spot for an ad that YouTube then chooses what to put in that spot. But you put the exact timestamp that you want YouTube to fill with an ad, for example, I'll let my producer put one in right here. Well, hopefully you enjoyed that ad break and hopefully it made you feel as disgusted as I felt when I saw that programmatic ad pop up in that video. Like he knew, he knew that that was the part of the video that everybody was going to go and watch.

He knew that they were gonna skip ahead and watch it. He knew that that part of the video would get the most clicks and therefore increase ad revenue for himself. He chose to put it there in that spot. Meanwhile, his wife is wailing next to him. He's barely comforting her. And then we cut to an ad. His commenters thankfully did not hold back. Somebody said, wealthy parents monetizing the murder of their imperfect child is beyond dystopian.

Another person said, announcing that you're ending your unborn child's life while monetizing it is demonic. Another person said having a merch link in the same video where you announce an abortion is diabolical. It really is. It is also diabolical. So dystopian on so many levels. So that video that we just watched, it was posted about two weeks ago. And so that at the end of last week was when Jesse went to on X and posted that now infamous vial essay about what they chose to do.

And like I said, at the top of this video, that post now has over 24 million impressions. He and his channel have been blown back into relevancy in honestly the worst way possible. And so, you know, if this was all generated to get clicks, so if he subscribes to the notion that all press is good press, well maybe it worked. But I also don't think that you'll have a career after this because of how so many people despise you now, especially as they continue to speak out, throw the blame on the rest of the world for making them feel awful about this decision and say things like this.

- Yeah, of course. I'm glad my dad didn't terminate me, but I'm normal. So, but guys tell you so much for amazing stream. - Yeah, I'm normal, bro. Didn't get aboard and have thanks for the stream. Send in some more super chats. Oh my God, what does this world come to? It's so gross. Oh, he's normal. Okay, Jesse, guess you deserve to live. I guess you only have a life worth living if you're normal, if you don't have the glitch that you talked about.

I mean, this entire situation is so disgusting and is so enraging on a million different levels. I mean, it is a tragedy that this child was aborted and the commenters on his videos are right. It is dystopian that it was monetized and branded to generate clicks and generate conversation. And I obviously think that his wife does have a role in this. She plays a big role in it and she should take responsibility. I do personally think that Jesse was the primary driver considering the camera, that he would not stop shoving in their faces and the lack of comfort that he was giving her.

In all of those videos, somebody posted about this and said, Jesse Ridgeway is absolutely vile. He handed his wife the test results, showing her that their baby likely had down syndrome. And he recorded this moment because he knew that her reaction would be emotional. And that's great content. Yes, Ashley has just as much responsibility in ending their baby's life, but I can't help but feel that she would've made a different choice if she had had a partner who told her that they could handle this because they're in it together.

Who encouraged her instead of using her pain to get clicks. She seems to be married to a guy who's always looking for the next viral clip, who wants that picture perfect family for his content. He's not supportive, he's manipulative, he's completely disrespectful of her pain. He is monetizing her trauma. She needs to run. And I completely agree with everything she said. There again, I do think that she takes a lot of the responsibility, but just in viewing the way that she was expressing her pain and her desire to be comforted, the entire family just standing around her emotionless a camera in her face and she had to walk away and grieve the life that she envisioned for herself.

And this child alone. Now, for millions of people to watch with, you know, sad music in the background, she needed a husband that was actually going to do what a husband is supposed to do. Over the weekend, they did a TMZ interview together and they talked about all of the comments that they've been receiving, the response to the 24 million, you know, impression posts saying that Christians have now told them that they deserve to die and that they have been receiving death threats on a daily basis.

And I wanna be clear, no matter how vile I think they are, and I do think he specifically is vile, that obviously is wrong. I always think that that is wrong, no matter my personal feelings about that individual. But in the same interview, they also shared that people have now said that they don't deserve to be parents after this. And I don't know, I don't because I believe that people have the ability to grow and change and be forgiven and redeem themselves.

But I also completely understand where people are coming from when they say that to them, because this was a absolutely disgusting slap in the face to people who would kill for the opportunity to have any child. Whether that is giving birth to them themselves or adopting one and this couple quite literally through their baby in the trash. And so I guess I would say, I don't know if after this you should have a child.

Now I am very much still in the throes of New Parenthood. I'm in the, you know, hormonal come down of postpartum. So everything is definitely a lot more raw and extreme emotionally right now. But I will tell you, in my limited experience, literally nine months of baby parenthood, in my limited experience, I know that it demands every part of you every single day. And because of the extreme love that you have for this child, this tiny little human, and the lack of control that you have over so much of life, you know what?

Not knowing what will happen to my son in the future, not knowing how the world is going to treat him when he is away from me, not knowing what will happen to you as the parent. It is anxiety inducing every single day because you are just constantly worried about them because you know that you cannot control the world that they are growing in. This entire experience requires you to relinquish so much selfishness and just surrender because you have to show up for them every single day not knowing what the future might hold.

And you had the opportunity to do that. Your child was not even here and you chose not to show up for them. You terminated the pregnancy because it was gonna be more beneficial for you. And then you made it seem like actually it was for the child because of all these health conditions. But actually it was because you did not want to deal with an imperfect child. You and your lifestyle. You didn't wanna deal with an imperfect child, you didn't wanna deal with the glitch.

But there are a lot of glitches in life, not just with children, but just in normal life. You are going to face in imperfection and glitches every single day. And so knowing what we know now, you might not be able to handle the rest of parenthood. So yeah, in the future, maybe stick with the dog.